I am now all signed up for Tribal Fusion Boot Camp starting in June! ;]
A thought struck me. Why is it so hard for me to accept being happy? It honestly comes paired with suspicion a lot of times… After pondering it more, I came to the conclusion that it is simply because its easy to be sad. The things that make you happy in life are obtained with hard work and dedication. Yet, it is so easy to accept failure, discouragement, and sadness because it requires no effort what so ever. If you want happiness in your life, then show that you deserve it. Thus, I’ve ultimately concluded that I need to show more devotion to my passions and ambitions. I truly believe it will all pay off in one way or another.
I keep thinking I see you out of the corner of my eye. Even in places where I know for sure there is no chance of you being. It’s driving me mad…
I wonder if you still often visit this blog like I know you used to…
It’s been a rough night/morning. Last night my job interview for an occupation I wanted quite badly did not go too well and I don’t expect to be getting it. Then this morning I woke up way late for work, the plug that was in my right ear popped out halfway while I was sleeping and caused it to BLEED, and then to top off my morning I spilled coffee everywhere.
(Title derived from Incubus song currently playing, as I couldn’t think of a proper title.)
I really don’t know if anyone reads these personal posts but I really do find quite a lot of comfort in having a place to put down my thoughts. Anywho….
Over the past month and a half I have been taking an hour long yoga class twice a week (Ashtanga and Yoga sculpt) with a 30 minute run before each class. And I must say I absolutely love what it has done for me so far. Physical activity really is quite important to one’s overall health. I’ve noticed an increase in happiness and good mentality, and my physical strength is definitely growing. The moves becoming easier to do, and from there I can take them deeper and hold them longer. Not to mention I’m glad to finally put my flexibility to good use. It’s become quite an addiction, I wish I could do it more often but school is course getting in the way, as it does with everything. I’m hoping to bump it up to 3 times a week for the remainder of the semester somehow, and then perhaps 4 or 5 times in the summer. I’m eager to see where it takes me.~
Lately there has just been so much on my mind, it’s been really hard to contain it all and without a proper outlet I feel like I would explode. The majority of things occupying my mind are quite good though! My life is currently very busy. I am wrapping up my 2 year degree, setting up a small gallery showing (perhaps a couple), searching for new jobs (already have one interview set up at my IDEAL work location), moving into my own place in a few months, and lining up my transfer to a 4 years school that I will be starting in the fall. All with a bunch of other little things piled on top of that! I’ve been quite scatter brained and stressed because of it all, but I am really excited for my future so it really is worth it. I have big plans and goals and I feel like I have a good idea on how to get to where I want to be. Parallel to my most current break up is the discovery of my true passions and aspirations in life. I feel like the past whole year of my life I have not really been myself and now I am really coming into my own. It feels beyond amazing to have an idea of who you truly are, and who you are not. With the coming of Spring, my mood has improved greatly overall. I never really noticed until now just how much the sun and weather can effect your mood. I can see myself moving somewhere that is sunny year-round, but not for a while. I am happy where I am right now and it will take some work but I really feel that it can only get better from here.